At the edge of the rainbow...hopefully.

*buzz*
The vibration from my S3 quivers the table.

I took a couldn't-care-less glance at the notification, thinking of not replying if it's not my mom. I'd yet to reach my target tonight, I had to concentrate. Then I saw it, a long vanished name.

No long whiny essay, but a sweet and short paragraph that paused my heart for a second.

It's been so long overdue. We both know this is dragged way too long, until a point when we decided not to give a damn about each other anymore... until I decided you've given up this friendship and I moved on. *smirk*  It was this significant word 'damn' that started it all. Not the rejection.

Seems like all this while, we were both bothered by the same emotion. Guilt.
Said it's the worst feeling one could have living. Honestly, I was surprised to see you having the same struggle because I thought I was at fault after all.

We had long passed that hurt, but we allowed arrogance to take charge. Neither of us has the courage to initiate the first step. I guess maybe we were still hurt.

Three years. It's been three long years ever since that incident. Surprisingly the images are still clear in my head, as if I can just hit the 'replay' button anytime and feel every moment again.

Tears. Wow. It actually moved me that much. Of joy? Of relief? None of it makes sense. It's a good vibe for sure, but the feelings are just not that intense. I did stop caring about you, remember?

I once mentioned in one of my posts that that would be my last emo post ever about you. Hmph. Might as well make this the first post to start off our unpredictable and unknown new beginning.

Cheers.

That Sentimentality

Maybe it's growing up,

Maybe it's life getting more hectic than before,

Maybe it's one of the moments when you listen to emotional songs and life moments come back to you like a playback, screened scene by scene.

The clock continues to tick. The more I gain, the less they have left.

It struck me that having yet to start working, I have already arranged my schedule to be packed and eventful when I can opt for a slack/typical lifestyle of studies and movies. I never regretted committing myself in so many areas, this is how I want my life be to the fullest. Exposing myself to as many things as possible, giving life the opportunities to trip me over (though I don't handle them well, lol)... in hope that these experiences may help to pave a less bumpy road ahead.

I'm not drowned by fatigue. I miss home.
I need warm hugs. I need Olaf.

Song for the night :

Spotted : Pokémon Company

Roppongi Hills Mori Tower 18F,

6-10-1 Roppongi, Minato-ku,

Tokyo 106-6118

       This is Mori Tower in Tokyo, not owned solely by The Pokemon Company itself. The headquarters are inside the tower.

            According to the net, the headquarters are in 3 places only, namely Tokyo-Japan, Washington-US and London-England. Whereas the  I've requested my friends in London, Korea, America and Japan to search for these places. Hopefully I get to upload photos of the inner architecture soon. *fingers crossed* >> Address For All Pokemon Companies <<

           I may be late to discover but it's never too late to start exploring as long as it exists! My friend shared a Tumblr link (The Art of Pining) on Facebook to me. That's how I got to know this. Cuteness overload!!

          The past few months have been packed but in a different manner. Usually it is hectic due to assignments and performances in campus but those few months were all about Koreans and Japanese and church stuffs. People tend to discover more about themselves during hectic moments. The more you encounter, the more you stumble. The more you pick yourself up, the tougher you get. I shall sum up the lesson from all my experiences in a sentence : Mix around with those who lift you up and don't forget to complement each other because this is how healthy relationships should be.

           I missed out on Copa Iba but managed to join for Gospel Cup (captainball tournaments). Yet, the practices and tournament merely took up three days of the month. July schedule was really packed. Third batch of Koreans arrived for only a month, therefore we had to cramp every event in weeks. Despite having involved in all three batches, I must say this was the only batch I sensed real bonding among each other. Be it the small number of them or them being more attached, I had wonderful, silly and memorable moments with them. I think most people click better with smaller crowd. It's hard to cater to all at the same time. I do not know how time will dilute this friendship, or how long-lasting it's going to be, I just pray that this will be the kind of friendship that you would occasionally take the memories out, chew on it, reminisce the tastes and still feel good about it. :)

           Academic duties are protruding their sharp claws on me. I ought to pull myself together and start thrusting. I can't be relying on my partners to cover up for me every time. Speaking of which, I'm truly blessed and thankful for the little angels surrounding me. May they be blessed and see me as a blessing too. =3

           Ahh, I've strayed away from my main idea of the post as usual. Anyways, I would be more than delighted to personally walked into one of the headquarters or offices one day. Pray that I could make this little dream come true in Japan! 楽しみにしています！=D 

p/s: I see what's happening. The visions may be blur and I may overlook at times, but I can sense it. I know. Give me more time, and I will put my thoughts together. With Love.

Doff

You have all the reason to peel it off, but you choose not to.

Because beneath that thin layer of dilapidated protection,

lies your naked soul,

that easily leaves scars to embed upon contact with wounds and woes.

I ought not sing to you one more time,

the annoying satirical ballad you dread the most.

Why, why,

just detach yourself from that wretched life!

But dignity and arrogance come in the way,

preventing you from getting rid of the rotten covering.

Yes, it is an awful sight I say,

yet what more options could you pray?

Barely Holding On

There's a time when I truly felt as if someone somewhere was watching over me, protecting me. Six angels were sent to fix me when one person broke me down. Of course, there were other moments when my guardian angel seemed to be appearing all of a sudden, out of nowhere and caught me in the nick of time, like spiderman or other heros who appear at the very last minute and snatch you off the ground before you hit, except in my life it happens figuratively.

It was one of the happiest moment in my life when suddenly the darkness shrouded the sky and raging of thunderstorm befell. I was barely hanging there. Strong enough to keep myself still in the midst of chaos. Vibration from my pocket indicated the arrival of a text message.

"I know to you I may be just a passerby, but I want to tell you that if you encounter any problem or trouble, I am here to find solutions or be your listener."

I hardly tell this person anything. I don't really bother why of all the time, that moment was picked to text me because we talked about like 1% of my issue. As ridiculous and miraculous as it is, coincidence happens. Sometimes, this inexplicable care from an outsider, it is what keep you holding on to that end of the rope. Though it's not what happened but yeah, it happens.

Keeping my head clear, I replied :

"You're more like a big brother than a stranger to me. But there are things that I wish to keep to myself and embrace the challenge. After all, everyone has their own obstacles in life. Don't you think I should learn to walk my life independently? If I keep telling you all my troubles and expect comfort from you, I'm just weak as I'll always be. Thanks, bro. I sincerely appreciate your concern."

Leave aside the message between lines and motives of the actions, I'm still thankful for what happened.