Hesitance

I gathered courage to set one foot out,
something held me back.

Is it alright if I say so?
Is it alright if I do so?
Is it the right timing?
Is it the best solution?

I second doubted my every thought.
I second doubted my every action.

I imagined the worst case scenario,
then I withdrew my steps.

I couldn't stop thinking about our future.
I couldn't stop thinking about our present.
I couldn't stop thinking about our past.

I studied and investigated;
there must be a loophole somewhere.

I cried in my prayers;
there must be a tiny ray of light somewhere.

I questioned myself;
there must be forgiveness lurking somewhere.

I wandered into my future;
there must be you......somewhere.