累·泪·累

“有时候也不太确定是什么，只是想好好哭上一晚，把所有无法变成文字的难过发泄出来...不喜欢这种感觉。”

有人说，那就大声的哭吧！

有人说，成长是需要眼泪来灌溉的。

像娃儿一样痛快的哭了出来，

把所有表达不出的难过给宣泄，

给心灵一个解放。

要哭，有2个条矩：

1. 不够难过不得哭

2. 要找个无人角落

真的很难受才可以崩溃，

否则忍者到底！

确定完全寂静才可以崩溃，

否则憋致最后一秒！

谁也不希望被人群的喧哗放大凄凉吧？

更不希望卸下面具后被发现弱不禁风的自己。

泪水流多了不叫发泄，

叫排泄。

哭多了心灵会依赖哭泣表达，那就变软弱了。

不可以

哭过就会变得坚强吗？好像是吧。

但这很主观，

各人处理情绪方式不太一样。

泪与累有着微妙的关系：

累了会哭，

哭了会累。

然后

累了就合上双眼，

进入沉湎，

把世界封锁在外。

醒了阳光再现，

绿叶上点点的水珠

是经雨洗礼的迹象。

又这么过了一个雨天；

又这么来了一个天晴。

好像...哭过就好了。

Hesitance

I gathered courage to set one foot out,
something held me back.

Is it alright if I say so?
Is it alright if I do so?
Is it the right timing?
Is it the best solution?

I second doubted my every thought.
I second doubted my every action.

I imagined the worst case scenario,
then I withdrew my steps.

I couldn't stop thinking about our future.
I couldn't stop thinking about our present.
I couldn't stop thinking about our past.

I studied and investigated;
there must be a loophole somewhere.

I cried in my prayers;
there must be a tiny ray of light somewhere.

I questioned myself;
there must be forgiveness lurking somewhere.

I wandered into my future;
there must be you......somewhere.