惜·友

我承认我很爱面子、脸皮薄。

对当事人说出心里话不是我的强项，表达能力更是有待改进的那种。

所以，我还是喜欢跟文字交朋友，因为他会帮我表达心里不敢说的。

就hor...还记得巴士上的那个小插曲后，你在我脸边扇风吗？

你那个动作让我五味杂陈。

第一味，惊吓。

“我的脸名显露出生气咩？” O.O

第二味，惊喜。

“有人懂我心情呃！” OvO

第三味，感动。

朋友，就是知道你心情不好拼命逗你笑（虽然其实是自己忘了吃药）。

第四味，火上加油。

扇风的那个动作，literally把火给扇猛了。

不懂做么，就是明明很努力在克制怒火告诉自己没有必要把事情闹大，却在被发现后更加无法压抑。这种感觉就好像有时候，你拼了命压抑着悲伤，但只要一个人问你“你还好吗？”，之前的坚强就会瞬间瓦解，崩溃嚎啕大哭起来。

第五味，感恩。

感恩，因为认识到你。

感恩，因为你当我是朋友。

感恩，因为上帝我们有更多的接触。

OK,感觉很肉麻的讲完了......*打冷战*

不习惯讲出来就是因为酱。*再打冷战*

-芳-

Motivation In Demand

Deadlines are approaching.

One-thousand-five-hundred-word essays are yet to be completed.

At the same time, an increased urge to catch up with missed movies grabs me by the feet.

Shoo, distractions!

I NEED MOTIVATION!!!!!

A great way for all students out there, suffering migraine from incessant piling up assignments like me, is to transform temptations into motivations!

For example, instead of making a wishful list entitled :

Movies to-watch :

1. The Expendables 2

2. The Avengers

3. I'm Not Stupid The Movie

4. Lorax

5. Monsters vs Aliens

6. ......

Why not changing it to :

PENDING REWARDS :

1. The Expendables 2

2. The Avengers

3. I'm Not Stupid The Movie

4. Lorax

5. Monsters vs Aliens

6. ......

It can be so much more inspiring and less alluring.

To me, it works but not every time. Well, as quoted from Facebook, "Not that we cannot control ourselves, but the enemy is too powerful".

True story.

都归零了吗？

事到如今，选择性哑了放弃发言自辩也好，人不是完美的，再如何情人眼里出西施也好，我明白自己的不足，也不打算对那些误导性舆论有所表示。

回味曾放映眼前的一幕幕片段会让回忆更伤，追究其中的幕后黑手会让现实更残，回眸当时的无情会让罪恶感更加根深蒂固，而眺望未来迷蒙的路会让步伐更踌躇不进……

带子转底了，歌也播完了，灯都打亮了，再留恋也于事无补。

有些事情不是斩草除根就能解决，即便那是最佳方针；

有些时候不是你想保有哪个样子就能如愿，即便那是最真实的自己。

别人看到的，是他们眼里的你；

别人相信的，是他们心里的你。

不管他们把你塑造得多么完美或反比，那只不过是排在第叁窗的你；

第四窗的真实，是为自己量身定做的模型。

当散场的时候到了，即便多么不舍，除了坚强离开……还有后续吗？

赖着不走会让人很感冒，这个道理我很明了，我也不会缠绵不放。

毕竟当初是自己架上了隔墙，好像没什么资格把人家的保护色给卸下。

每个行为背后都有必须附上的代价。

眼泪流出了感慨和遗憾，

就当作失算了过分了割伤了别人也擦伤了自己。

拿不起，是因为太贵重的礼物捧在掌心没法收下也没有安全感。

放不下，是因为觉得结局太唐突太让人喘不过气。

虽说真情找上了自己，但已不好意思再诉苦。最好的回报，就是用微笑包装一个破碎的现场。这不是伪装也不是假象，而是自尊心的坚强，是缩小悲伤放大欢乐的奇妙诀窍。

路不转人转，那就将就现状吧！一直走一直走，莫忘初衷。

可曲折的路百转迁回，还是回到不解的末端：

”怎么 搞砸了呢……”

Recap

Guess I owe here an update.

Sometimes, we tend to be weird.

At a point you wish for something, but at the other you wish it gone.

People create public blogs for a purpose.

Either to express feelings at the same time has indifferent hope for wise thoughts and feedback, or for fame by posting latest updates and info about happenings.

The former is comparatively preferable to me.

I concluded Sem 2 to be more gloomy but, conversely, much more sunnier than Sem 1.

Life is about creating greater moments and not losing them to anguish.

Sem 1 was life flipping open a fresh chapter of beginning. Buds sprouted where dry flower wilted.

Blossom took place in Sem 2 and honey-making, stinging insects defiant its lush. Struggling to stand firm with its pedicel and fragile protective sepals, it survives the war.

Sem 3 is left unknown for its whichever possible odds. One thing for sure, I want to make a life and not a living. Why bother finding oneself like what others said what we had been doing when we can create our own unique personality and image? Conformity is the cage of freedom the hidden development of retarded growth.

Food For Thought

Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today? – Mary Manin Morrissey

I chose to be dumb. Not stupidly fake dumb but the relinquishment to speak up. For there is no necessity in talking to French if you don't speak French. After all, words are plain alphabets if their meanings not taken aright.