Well done, Fang

Often I wonder why have I allowed expectations to sink on my shoulders and let the weight suffocate me. Nonetheless, the feeling when I proudly give myself a pat on the shoulder in the end and say, "Well done, Fang" is simply incredible.

The journey of my third phase practicum which lasts for 3 and a half months is coming to an end. I had my last joined evaluation for my major and this was what I wrote for my reflection :

如果......没关系

如果是液体，没关系。
如果是固体，没关系。

如果让人百思不解，没关系。
如果让人掏心掏肺，没关系。

如果难以回报，没关系。
如果难以启齿，没关系。

如果懒于反抗，没关系。
如果面于冷哼，没关系。

如果犹豫不决，没关系。
如果摸不着头脑，没关系。

如果想待安全地带，没关系。
如果希望顶天立地，没关系。

如果想做自己，
如果可以做自己，
如果舒服做自己，
如果无恙，就没关系。





真的觉得，好庆幸。

Relationship - Religious Discrimination

Before preaching of love and fairness in treatment, how much do you actually practise them?

Yes, generosity, great patience and tolerance are required when opening up your welcoming arms to people who do not share the same belief or perspective in life. It is undeniably a munificence in accepting one into your life to share the moments, but will you bring someone across that border to be in your life?

From a religious perspective, be it quoting from the Bible or al-Quran or other holy books in the world, a large percentage includes a verse that basically says, "love is for all". Despite being the 'chosen ones', you are taught/commanded to love everyone, both lovable and unlovable. Ask yourself this question, would you be in a relationship/marry a person who does not seem to share the same beliefs and practices with you?

Let's narrow down the terms 'belief' and 'perspective' to the religion aspect.

If you are a monotheist, would you prefer going after a person who shares the same religion, who attends to the same practice, who thinks God should/shouldn't be put priority before anything? If either one is missing, would you doubt if that person's mindset resonate with yours and if it would cause a fissure in your relationship?

There are two main religions that I would like to highlight here :
Let's say you're a Christian, would you go after a person who has not baptized even though one is open to the practices?

Let's say you're a Muslim, would you go after a person who does not cover her head or not dressing according to how the Quran has taught even though one believes in the prophet Muhammad and Allah S.W.T?

Compromising can be hazardous sometimes.
When you compromise the little things that seemingly harmless despite sharing the core foundation of belief, you would find the little things eventually being magnified and irritable. You might start thinking why can't one fulfill the little commands when one has believed in something so majestic?

People with a religious pillar seems to have a paranormal strength to lean on but they are, too, the ones that receive more jibe and slander having to stand up for their faith and live up to their beliefs.

Religion seems to be preaching a love that the world shares.
But at times when I ponder and reflect on the various people I have met, they seem to be sharing the same religious discrimination and apparently they are unconsciously preaching the ideology to the next generation.

似是而非

如果有一天你发现...
我被写在你的故事里，
而你却不曾出现在我的场景里，
可以不要难过吗?

因为我发现，
你是本打开着的书，
而我，
畏畏缩缩，
启开的钥匙紧握手里。

你跟我坦白过你的过去，
但你不知道我的过去。
你没问，
我也没想说。

曾经有个男孩像你一样，
付出的真心一摞摞。
可是把鱼饵丢进了弃湖里，
徒劳无功。

稚气懵懂的我，
以最恶劣的方式
快刀斩乱麻，
结果害得双方偏体鳞伤。

感情不是越有经验，
就一定懂得处理状况。

我只希望
历史   不再重演。

遗言？Last will ?

如果哪天我离开了人间，

我要认识我的人把和我的回忆，

写在面子书上。

这样，

我家人可以看得见，

女儿在外留下的印迹。

If one day I left this world, 

I hope you would post our memories on my Facebook wall

even if we are mere acquaintance.

Then my family would get to reminisce

the trails left by their daughter.